Stop This Beat is Killing Me

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Ples is from Hanna is Not a Boy's Name by Tessa Stone and can be found here http://hanna.aftertorque.com/

A Notion

I'm back to considering stages. Hmmm I dunno. Macabre would be kind of interesting as a Main becasue she is more than just a little bit crazy. 8D I loooove the crazies :3 But she lacks the need for anyone else and without that need it makes it harder for other characters to become a part of the set if you will.

I do have an interesting notion though. Most of these characters that I do have now frequent a sort of black market and black market-esque activities. Having a neutral dealer would make for kind of interesting main. What do you think? I am intruiged by this idea, yet at the same time don't even know if I want to bother with it. hmmmm.

I don't even really feel like thinking about my comic right now. I wants to make costumes. And lots of them :3 I'm tempted to do another Hanna is Not a Boy's Name cosplay for A-kon, just becasue last time it was a real blast and it's been a while since I've had that much fun at a con. I like grrrroups :3 And getting to take lots of pictures. One of my favorite parts is the picture part. Though normally I despise cameras, but I'm in costume so it's totally different. Maybe I can convince a few people to dress up with me so I don't feel wierd barging in on a bunch of strangers >_> hmmmmm well see. But damn it I want to make something!!!!!

Blockage

I'm lost in this odd swarm of lazy/ really wanting to get some drawing done.

But most of the drawing I want to do is like with someone on iScribble or something so it can be this quick exchangge of good and crack drawings. *sigh* I miss my drawing buddies. Like Hard core. bah :(

I feel creatively stunted. Course the holidays are litterally just around the corner and I seriously hate them. I really do. For some very personal reasons but all that need sto be said is these are some of the worst times of year for me. bah.

Now I'm all moody.

I MUST FINISH THIS DRAWING!!!! DDDD8

Well you see.....

You know what I find quiet bothersome? One of many reasons that i avoid fan communities is becasue most so called rabid fans tend to see characaters one sidedly and staticly with no room for growth and once that character does grow and change they have a fucking coniption. Once again yet even more proof that a public is stupid moron wandering around like chickens with their heads cut off. Bah. I know I'm terriblly mean but so be it, its damn true.

Anyho back to my not so internal debates over my comic. I know I keep going back and forth on making Grey the main, but fact is I really just don't like drawing Grey a whole lot. I love him to pieces but to me he's just not super fun to draw. He has his moments but for the most part, I avoid it. That why theres not a whole shit ton of drawing of him just hanging around. He really is more of a psycological presence that a phsyciall one and I want him to stay that way, so though what he does will consistantly be present in the comic I don't think you'll actually physically see him for a very veeeeeeeeery long time.

No this hard conclusion that i have drawn brings me back to the queestion og Macabre. She is definatly someone who Grey would see as a horrible person who needs to be taken care of, and I do a hell of a lot better with chaotic characters like Mac. She once again is a contender for the main, and she really does have room for growth even if she is a stubborn ass/ Noooot the most people friendly person though.

My characters tend to be riddled with sarcasum, stubborness, pyscopathy, and are just down right douchbags. What can I say I love asshole characters they give the world flavor and right needed kick in the ass. I must find my balance though!!!!

Post 100

OoOOOo I've reached my 100th post. Fancy. And for this random ocasion I'm going to show yall the new Grey if you will.

I made his face wider and more squared and changed his hair too. His pretty wavey/curly hair :3 I looks more wavey instead of just lots of hair slicked back now and that makes me happy. Mmm Green eyes.

I went to a coffee shop yesturday and got some pretty cool face shapes. Mostly noses. I'm liking noses right now and profile sillouhetts too. Yay weird moods! lol

Also here is a quick peek at Grey's wife. Claire Holmes

I'm still messing around with here. I want her to have very classic 50s features. I love drawing curles to pieces :3 I wish my hair curled but it totally wont/ never will. So the result is lots of curly haired people in my drawings lol. I was originally going to make her blonde but I'm like the red better :3

We'll see where this goes.

Anywho enjoy!

~Lamont

Hrmrmrmm

So I've decided that I want the story to be told by a victum. Not resisarily on of Grey's victums. Maybe even his wife? Or Or! That tidbit that I did post is like begining /end thing going and it being told by someone he's about to kill. Oh the possibilities. I really like that concept though.

I've also grown particularly found of drawing woman with upturned noses :3 like hardcore. And they are getting bigger and more dramatic as I go lol XDD

Needlesss to say there is a lot of work for me to do and I'm no where near being ready to start drawing chapters or anything. At this point I am more comfortable sketching these people out and drawing them in situation so I can get to know them better. And well I like to blab on here casue I helps my braaaaaaain. My poor abused brain. It feels like it's dying. D8

~Lamont

Growth

Hmm this thing of figuring out who my main is going to be is a fun task (sarcasum) Macabre is an interesting notion. She is a character that I do love, but then again I don't know exactly how much room she has for growth. I don't see her changing much... hmmmm o.o It a rule that most if not all characters should experiance growth EXPECIALLY the main character! Otherwise they become static and boring and that's total lamesauce!

Ugh fuck! I need like a month locked in a room full of creative people and all we do if talk and draw shit. Seriously! I'm in a rut!!!!!!

Buh I know what I think is interesting but I feel like it won't make an interesting/intruging character for everyone else. Mostly because I'm not particularly a person who stands out so that makes me feel like I'm boring, so if I'm boring doesn't that make my characters boring?

Bah I dunno. My braaaaain hurts ;_; I also epicly SUCK at networking. What did your parents tell you when you were a kid? Don't talk to strangers! Well I listened damnit o.o. That is my weakest point and that totally does make it hard for me to read a target audience becasue I have very few coming in and viewing my pages and what not. That's why other people do the whole networking thing for me in my professional life. It's just something that it completely over my head.

I need a partner!!!

Commitment Issues

>_> Yeah I know I'm horible. I think I keep doing this becasue I am so damn nervous about this comic. I don't want it to end up being something I end up hating a few pages in.

Grey is not my main character, he's not realtable enough to normal people. And well I think it would be funner to keep him more like a puzzle than an open book. though he is definatly in the main cast and will appear often. I think why I keep hitting stand stills is I have no one around to talk to creativly that is physically around and we can like go to a freakin coffee shop and or mall and draw for hours will we talk about this crap.

I miss that outlet like hardcore!

Someone needs to move near me D8

anywho. enjoy a doddle

~Lamont

Infinty Goes Both Ways

Yep that's it. Tottally the title of my little comic about Grey. I think it's lovely appropriate. I've been struggling with titles for a while and I absolutely love that one. :3

I really do want the comic to hinge on Grey, he's a keystone. He's something we all wish we could do, but never will. He's hopelessly tragic and I think that's what I love about him the most. A man delivered can't make his way in darkness. He relies on only himself and doesn't rely on a so called higher power to make his decisions for him. Though don't get me wrong he does go waaaaay too far but every side has it's extremes. At his very core he is the perfect neutral, judging and killing without prejudice. Though to most he will appear to be nothing more than a villian. <3

Now the fun begins with creating all of the other characters. I have decided to scrap most of them well with the exception of the few that haven't been developed at all.

I'm excited :3

Workings

Ok here's a story snipet from my comic. I know I'm a horrible person and I write in Novel format instead of script, but script format pisses me off. This is how I plan on starting out I believe.


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This story begins, like most good things do, in a bar. Well almost. I suppose I should start at the first time I met the man before me.


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“We the jury find the accused Grey Mason Holmes guilty of 45 counts of murder in the 3rd degree.


“Murder?” Grey questioned, “I never laid a hand on those people.” He continued, “well.. Except for the last two, but-“
“Order!” The judge demanded banging his gavel, “For these crimes-.”
As the judge continued I could help but examine Mr. Holmes. He was a very well dressed and even handsome man. He was a detective for Scotland Yard. How could it have gone unnoticed for so long that one of their own was a murderer? Though his own story was sad enough in it’s self. Apparently he snapped and went off the deep end when a crime syntactic broke into his home and killed his wife and child in an attempt to get him to back off. Though in the same case wouldn’t you do the same? The bailf cuffed and carted the man off even at his several objections to the ruling, after all he had never touched a single hair on their heads. They killed themselves. The Judge did show some compassion though, instead of the death penalty he instead got to sever out 45 life sentence. Better than dyeing though.. Right?
Turns out Grey’s stay in prison was even more problematic than his own freedom. Every time he was given a new cellmate they all ended up committing suicide and he would just smile and laugh at the guards saying he had no idea what happened. He tried to stop them but it always seemed to late. Grey never found their company agreeable to begin with. They tried locking him in solitary and almost anything else they could, but it never seemed to work.


Until one day when roll call came around and Grey was no where to be found. He had escaped from maximum security prison in a single night. They found no tunnels, nothing on the cameras, nothing. It was like he was a ghost. Panic spread as it hit the news and a nationwide manhunt took place and still they came up empty handed. As hard as they looked Mr. Holmes was nowhere to be found and yet here he sits plain as day on the bar stool before me. I should be scared, but I’m not. I feel oddly calm, and even safe. But an even more pressing question is, why does he sit here? This self proclaimed angel of death and judger of men seemed to find me. Maybe my time has just run out? Even as he folded his hands on the table a leaned forward smiling at me I still felt no fear. Maybe this was how he did it all these years.
“Don’t be so nervous.” Grey chuckled.


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MmMm yes. lol. This can be drawn out several ways I guess that why I like writing everything up like this. It'll probably go something like this bar push in, them sitting at the table, flashbacks of Grey's "crimes", trail, jail times, escape, and then back to the present at the bar.

Now on this note I plan on making Grey older than I originally intended. I have him down as being 32 years old. Well quite frankly that is too young for how I have his life written, also I think he also needs the add years of experiance to do what he does so very well. So now I'm thinking he is going to be in his later 40s. 47 or so. Sounds like a good plan.

Then here we encounter this fun little problem that I ALWAYS have! I have no idea who is telling the story or who is sitting across from Grey in this scene. -_- I know I'm made of fail sometimes. This all traces back to the fact that I SUCK at making heroes because quiet frankly I don't want some crazy ideal in my comic like freakin Superman or something. I have problems making good guys well because I tend to believe the worset in people. That's why I have so many villians >_> lol. There has to be some kind of formula for making a character that is good, BELIEVABLE, and that I totally don't want to kill off becasue I hate them so. This hasn't worked out well in the past... Obviously. So this leaves me with the obvious path of anti-hero. But you see, in its own messed up way that is Grey. I know hate me.

The world I have set up is chaulk full of insane, deranged, and evil people. There needs to be a little more balance for my tastes other than what I call "god characters" that are things like the police, ect. Maybe this person telling the story needs to be a neutral. I'm comfortable making neutrals, but I think they should still lean on way of the other. Good cop, Bad cop doesn't work with out the good cop!!!! Someone help me this a good person who I don't want to murder ;A;

My Brain doesn't function on that level o.o

lol I'll be posting new silhouettes soon. Oh yeah all my people are getting redesigns!!!

EDIT!!!

Ok so I lied... Just a little, I forgot about 2 characters I have designed just no one has ever seen them yet. SO Grey is Either talking to Sawyer and girl who is dying from cancer, or Guillermo a guy, who well has nooooo story yet. so yeah >_> still need some help there lol

Setting Up

I'm setting up a make shift office for myself. It's exciting :3

I'll have a nice place to work for once instead of trying to do everything sitting on my bed and leaning over killing myself. Bah it's not fun, and certainly gets difficult when I need to use rulers and what not. I'm investing in a drafting table that I'll hopefully have in the next few months (maybe even a light drafting table. that would be sweet but I totally don't have $1,000 >_>) It makes me feel like I can work properly, I love it. :3

I'm hoping to have not only my onw personal comic up and running by the end of December but even the Robin comic that I plan on doing too. I like to multitask. And mMmMmmM Bristol board I love it!! <3 <3 It's been so long!

Grayson

I'm not going to lie. It's always been a dream of mine, I guess you could say, to draw/write a Robin comic. Not like a whole serise, but a short one maybe only like 6 full comics (books... the American way not giant ass novels) I really want to super bad. Maybe if I come up with something cool enough I'll get the balls to pitch it to DC. But I really am one of those people who would prefer to work with someone else. I need a fellow Robin fan to at least bounce ideas off of. Cause I have them but I need to know how they sound to someone else if that makes sense?

I kinda got started. My computer will no longer hold a charge so the rest of this is going to have to be in a sketchbook. I just have to go buy a new one. Lamesauce. D8 ugh.
Dick Grayson alone has so many different designs for his costume so I kinda just went and picked my favorite parts from all of them and tossed them together :3

On the sketch, Blue lines are anatomy, Orange lines are clothing and Black is the finished product. I know it's kinda odd but it's easier for me to work that way. Expecially because I do still have problems with male anatomy. That side view almost killed me -_-;

I was watching Batman and Robin today (the one were George Cloony is Batman) and it made me giggle at one point when Bruce is talking to Grayson he's lecturing him and and pauses for a minute and then says his name. Which in today's context makes it sound like he is calling Robin a dick. lol XD I got a good tickle out of it.

It's odd how that evovled from a very popular boy's name to a curse/insult

Robin

Oh Mr. Dick Grayson how I do love you to pieces. Robin has always been one of my all time favorite heros. I've never been one to like the main hero if you will, I like sidekicks, antiheros and MOST of all villians :3
I like my characters with flaws. Oh glorious flaws.

And when I say I like Robin I'm not talking about "Gee Willickers Batman" Robin I'm talking about narsassistic, tunnel vision, one man army, stubborn, moody Robin. Oh I love him <3 <3 <3
What brings all of this up? I totally had this weird ass dream about him last night. It was this insane mix between a Highschool, Bioshock, and CSI. The part I remember most is me pointing out the killer while he was bowling and then he comes at us with hedgeclipper and apperently Robin has balls of steal FYI cause the killer guy chops them off and the hedgeclips break. lol I know... I know. It was very bloody and then apperently I just shot him a gazillion times and that woke me up lmao. Yes welcome to my strange messed up head.

But anywho. i have the intense urge to do some Robin fanart. And GOD DAMNIT!!! I want to make a ROBIN COSTUME and make someone wear it o.o

I know someone wants to be the totally badassness that is Robin *points fingers*

Anywho if I ever get the time to expect some epic Robin drawings... At least sketches I may never get around to finishing them. *shrugs*

Now I'm going back to watching stupid Ghost/ haunting shows on TV and giggling like a moron.