Agoraphobia

Someone on my DA watch list recently posted a journal asking other if they had agoraphobia and how they deal with it. For those of you who don't know agoraphobia is a fear of open places such as malls, conventions ect. places where there is no where to hide and that usually involve large crowds of people. It often leads to anxiety and or panic attacks.

I am one of those people, but mine is under alot more control than other peoples. I avoid crowds like the plauge because those are what will send me into panic attacks. So all you assholes who used to try to see how many people you could stuff into elevators I school you have no idea how much I hate your guts. In High School there was this one hallway that I absoultly could not go down ever. i would take the long way around and often would end up being late to class. I also have the fear of open places to. Mostly becasue there is no control in a place like that. I can't go to new place like that by myself. That's why when I was living in Dallas it took me over a year to find out where places and thing where. As much as you may want to go out and find all these cool things at the same time it a terrifying prospect. That's why when I go places I annoy the shit out of someone to go with me, I have just recently gotten to the point to were I can go eat at resturants by myself. It took lots of guts and i did alot of drive to the resturant chicken out and go back home.

I know it's one of those fears the people usually hear about and make fun of cause they usually just hear the fear of open spaces part. But yeah it's something that is real and its scary for the people that have it. It is one of the rarer social anxiety disorders and it sucks. It takes a lot of work to get through things like that and it's even harder when there isn't anyone around who is particularly sympathetic to your fear. that's why a lot of people with this phobia just become shut ins and order everything online.... BTW the totally sell and delivery gorceries online... o.o .... Yeah I know.

But yeah I dunno seeing that in the other person's journal made me want to write about it... I think that is the first time I have ever read about someone else having that phobia, no one talks about it.