Rnadomness

This came out less stupid than I had orignally planned... And that's mostly cause wolves (animals in general) are hard to draw o.o

He looks to skinny, almost like a coyote instead of a wolf. i so referenced from Balto though cause I wanted a more cartoony references fail... meh

This might at one point in the near future become my DA ID lol... not sure though.

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So random thought of the moment... I blame the Queen song playing and this slew of Weddings and fluff drawings. I've always had this sinking suspicion that I'm not cut out for love. Whether it's just because I'm flat out unlovable or unable to do so myself I'm not quiet sure of yet. It's easy when you're friends you know you could call said firend at 4 in the morning and if they heard the phone they would answer and not be pissed at you (well unless you're drunk >_> lol) . Friends will be there for all the crap in your life as well as the good times too and they don't care cause they're you're friend they take care of you cause they know you'll return the favor. Friends are accepting no matter how crazy or messed up you are. I can't count the number of times my friends who have had significataant other will come over and complain about them and say how they just don't want to be around them right now, I've always found that to be an oddity. If this is a person that you are obviously considering spending the rest of your life with since you are dating them, then shouldn't that be a red flag? I mean yeah sometimes you just don't feel like talking to someone for some reason or another but when it's a constaint thing that just seems to be a problem. I've also noticed that they act so differently around the person their dating, this is another thing that I find slightly disturbing. It's not like it's a job interveiw I mean best foot forwad and all that shit but I don't see how hiding yourself is a good thing and then I even have some friends that don't want the person they are dating to hang arounf their friends cause i guess they might find something out. *shrug* Maybe it's just me, but I don't think you should have to be two different people just to date someone. And as I've heard if you have a problem going to said person your dating is not something people do, they go to their friends. Friends won't judge you like that, if they're really friends anyway.

I dunno it just seems like a lot of hassle for not a lot in return. Now there are exception as there are to everything. Some people do find someone to love and love them in return, but quiet frankly I'm to lazy to wade through all of the bullshit to end up in the same position I am now. When you've been single for 21 (almost 22) years it's something you grow accustom to, sure you question it from time to time but for the most part I don't mind at all. I don't have to worry about some other crazy person being around all the time. I was never asked out in Jr. High or High school i only went to things like prom because i got dragged there by my friends and then I just wandered around and ate food (mMmmmm I loves me some food lol) I didn't get asked out by someone until I was 19, which my psychoic brain freaked out and said no to cause that's how I roll XP Out of the 3 guys who have asked me on a date I only still talk to one, he's one of my best friends and I talk to him almost every day. As to whether or not things could have gone that way who knows and who cares cause it's all in the past I like how it is I'd rather have a good friend than date someone if that makes sense. When I think about it.. I probably have a slight phobia of affection, I know that sounds odd, but when you grow up in a house with constaint yelling and fighting these things happen.

POINT BEING I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!! I think that's good enough

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NuxS-9t3tnY

<3 <3 <3 love it 8D

I ramble alot >_> lol